My pillow purchases

Thank you to all my readers for your comments I ordered 3 pillows off Etsy, two for our bedroom and one for our living room. First, the green damask pillows are actually pillow covers and they will go nicely with our new bedding. Then I had an AH HA moment when the green pillow I purchased at Khol's was just sitting there looking very sad and I thought this would look PERFECT on our bed with the two new pillows I just snagged! So it's changed it's home from the living room to the bedroom with the Paris pillow taking it's place. I wanted our living room to be brighter so I am swapping out some reds to whites and hopefully that will do the trick! Below are the pillows that I am the proud new owner of. Check out the links below, the sellers of these beauties make some amazing pieces!

Link to damask pillows here

Link to Paris pillow here

On the soccer front my team is now 4-0 with a tight win last night. They scored in the last 2 minutes of the game to secure their flawless record! I told them, I don't want to have a heart attack at 26, so please score earlier, thank you very much!!!

Our bedroom is getting a makeover

So we got new bedding in Feb. and we love it. Yet it's all brown and a little dark for spring and summer. I had my eye on a quilt from Target, a grass green beauty. I was going to wait for it to go on sale, but one day I was at my mom's house and it was sitting on the counter. Apparently it fell into her cart! Aren't mom's the best?

So we now had brown bedding and a green quilt. We then needed a new bedskirt, some throw pillows and a new picture above our bed. It was gold and outdated, we are young and needed something new and fresh. I scored some frames on sale at Target and placed my order for some sepia prints today.

Since we rent there will be no painting, but casa de A&B is going green in color to make our bedroom a bright retreat on a budget. I will post pics when I am done!

I have been searching Etsy for some throw pillow covers. One thing I have learned is to just buy covers, I have a ton of throw pillows, no sense in buying the entire pillow when all it needs is a face lift.

Here are a few I am considering. Give me your opinions.....

A question to my readers

I suffer from migraine headaches, bad ones at that, and have all my life! They started when I was about 2 years old and have stuck with just like a best friend my whole life. When I was about 18 months old I fell down 2 cement stairs in my walker and had a skull fracture, would explain a lot, huh? Anyway, the migraines started after that. I would either wake up or go to school get a bad headache and then throw-up. My parents thought I had the flu. Low and behold a few years later I was diagnosed with migraine headaches.

Now this was around the time that migraines were just coming around as being diagnosed and there were no medications out there especially for children. My mom and I would go to this pediatric neurologist and beg for medication. I can still remember the doctors voice and how I would have to describe every minute of the migraines I would have.......can you say long and boring! So after many hours, many medications, and lots of treats from my wonderful momma...yes she bribed me and I love her for it, we moved on to an adult neuro dude at the age of 15.

After many years of battling migraines being hospitalized in college I was put on Depakote for a preventitive medication. Worst mistake of my life! I had short term memory loss while in college. I would study, go to class and then would fail the test that I was prepared for. Come to find out, I suffered from short term memory from Depakote....GREAT! So that one was stopped. My sister then suggested that I go the chiropractor, and she was right. I started going 3 times a week, then two, then one. My migraines decreased from having 4 weekly to maybe 2 monthly. I love my chiro dude!!! He thinks I'm nuts because I love to get popped and cracked!

So my question to my readers is: what are your migraine remedies??? What do you like about them, what don't you like? Also, if you are trying to concieve or pregnant, what has your doctor said??? I am trying to find some alternative remedies to help combat my migraines when we try to have a baby once again. Thanks all, have a great Wednesday!

snap shots....

B and I have been out and about over the past couple of weeks with some family and I don't have a catchy slogan for the post or any real point for that matter, but I do have pics of some cutie pie kiddos and who doesn't love that!! So here they are!

Ms. Stella and her cute red top

Hanging out on B and Pobo's shoulders. Check out Stella's green flats...she is sooo my niece!

The rents at dinner

Even mr. Henry came to dinner with us!

And out smug mugs

Noah with a large and in charge duck...I then had to pay $5 for this pic...seriously, it's a duck people!
Posing in their Iowa Chops t-shirts......Iowa Chops just wrong!

I love the red hair!

So there you have it!! Have a great Monday. My soccer team is currently 2-0 with 3 game this week. I will keep you updated!!!

A sad realization

Yesterday I started thinking about B and trying to have a baby once again. We started talking about when and what we would do tell or not tell. Then I said oh that will so exciting once again, but then our excitement will immediately be followed by terror. I am terrified that we will lose another baby and I don't know if I am strong enough to go through this again. I hate the fact that last time we were so overjoyed, didn't have a care in the world, and couldn't wait till October, and that has been taken away from us. I hate that we will never have that sense of first time joy of being pregnant, and when the doctors or nurses ask is this your first pregnancy, I have to say no. I simply hate that. It would be completely different if the outcome would have been a happy and healthy baby, but it wasn't. I want that feeling back and I don't want to be terrified, but I am. How do I get rid of this, how do I make it go away?

I apologize for the breakdown today, but this blog has been a great tool for me to vent and share my feelings with you all, and not feel like I am bombarding my family and friends.

On a brighter note, my soccer team is 1-0 so far and we have a tough, tough game tonight, but I am hopeful that we come out victorious! Have a wonderful day!

Shopping I went.

My first stop was Forever 21. I am usually not a fan of their clothes due to lack in quality, however my first thought was I won't be wearing these for too long and I didn't want to go overboard, and good thing I didn't. So I will be sporting these pieces this season, but I can't see them making to next spring because although they call if Forever 21, it should be called 3 washes and it's done!

This fun little tank layerd with a white tank and paired with linen pants from the same store. Add some funky jewels and VIOLA! We have an outfit!

At Khols, I have fallen in love with their Simply Vera line. First I adore Vera Wang, I wish I could be her apprentice and at these affordable prices, who wouldn't fall in love??
I snagged her black purse at 60% off and I swear I will carry this purse forever. It holds all my junk, my planner and could still hold a small child if I need!
Classic, black and sleek, exactly what I aspire to be! Ok, not the exact one, but similar. I will take a pic of mine and post it later this week. I wouldn't make as big of a deal over the purse, but I am seriously in love!

Ok, now on to the real point of this post. Simply Vera for Khols. Oh my goodness, if you haven't seen it, you need to! Who doesn't love Vera and who wouldn't love her pieces at affordable prices. Here are just a few pieces....

Did I mention that I am the proud new owner for this coat. Perfect for spring!

So my point is, go check out Simply Vera at Khols. Very affordable, classic, chic and so fitting for so many women!
Cheers!
Abby

Pathology Results

Yesterday B and I went to meet with our doctor to get the pathology results from my D&C. She said the results showed that I miscarried as a result of genetic material upon conception, which is a fancy shmancy term for a chromasomal abnormality. B and I were thankful that we got these results just to put our mind at ease. Everyone can tell you that it's nothing you did or could have done but ultimately you automatically blame yourself, and we did. Now we know and specifically asked her could we have done anything differently, or did we do anything wrong. She said absolutely not, there is nothing you could have done to prevent this.

We then asked her a whole slew of questions from when can we try to concieve again to what do we do differently next time. She was amazing and sat there and calmed our fears as we are both terrified and don't want to go through this again, but know that there is a bigger plan in life and God has a special plan just for B and myself. We know we now have a very special little angel in heaven that one day we will get to meet. We really feel at peace with the situation and feel like we got the answers that we needed to make that happen. Our family has been absolutely amazing through this whole process. I have to share a few stories about them to show how greatful we really are.

-First, my older sister rearranged her entire schedule to be with me both Wed. and Thursday, drove me 45 minutes to pick up B at the airport, then sat with B when I was in surgery until my momma arrived. She and her hubby then sent a bottle of wine, beer, magazines, books and a outfit out to the lake with us to entertain us and make me look stylish. Might I add that she has a 5 year old, 3 year old and a new born at her house.

-Second, my mom was supposed to fly out and see my little sis in NY the weekend I had this all happen. She got to Detroit, found out I was having my D&C, and started to break down. My stepdad went and arranged for her to turn around on the same flight back to Iowa. She was at the hospital when I woke up. She then cooked us dinner for the night we were at the lake and sent movies with us, oh and offered up her lake house for our getaway!

I am so blessed to have these two women in my life, let alone so many other family and friends that love B and I dearly, we are truly blessed. Moving on from here I am going back to my normal blogging of fashion, home and randomness. We will never forget our first baby, but we look forward to our dream of having a family a reality.

Thank you to all my readers who have given us kind words, thoughts and prayers, you will never know how much they mean to us! God bless you all!

Healing takes time..

It's now been a week and a half since B and I got our devastating news. We are taking it day by day and although my body has healed, our hearts are taking a little more time. We have both agreed that we are forever changed.

We have had overwhelming support from our friends and family, we don't know what we would do without all of them. There are some days, like today I feel great, feel at peace with the whole situation and then there are days like Friday where I called B because I was sitting in my office at work bawling my eyes out. I do know this that each day is getting a little easier, and the only thing that has given us the strength to face each day has been our faith.

Yesterday I took post it's and put one on the bathroom mirror that says " have faith that there is a bigger plan" I want to remember this each day. Although we may never know why we lost our first baby, we must have faith that God had us go thorugh this for a reason. There is a bigger plan to all this madness and it's only when we fully devote ourselves to him that we find the meaning of our plan.

One thing that makes me have some kind of peace is to know that my nanny that was so dear to me and passed away in 1998 will take care of our baby in heaven. Cheesy as it may sound, this puts my mind and my heart at peace to know that she's with our baby and would take great care of him/her as she did with me and my sister.

I told B yesterday that I've now realized that if I can be a voice of support or information for another gal going through this situation, then something good has come from our sorrow. I've also realized how common miscarriages actually are. Not to scare anyone but it's kind of taboo subject that not a lot of people talk about. After going through one, so many women have come up to me and said they too have been through the same thing. It's been very comforting talking with these women who have then gone on to have healthy families.

So here are the things that are still haunting me......

-First, we still don't have any answers. I don't know if we ever will. I go back to see the doctor tomorrow and I am hoping that she will tell us anything, even if it's nothing at all.

-Second, I am TERRIFIED to get pregnant again. Knowing very well that this could happen again. I don't know if I am strong enough to be able to handle this once again.

So here's a question I pose to my readers who have gotten this far. When B and try to concieve again, and we will. When we are lucky enough to get pregnant again, would you tell everyone right away, knowing that you had amazing support from family and friends during this trying time? Or would you keep it to yourselves and grieve on your own IF and that's a big if you were to lose the baby once again?

Here's my dilemma, first, we had amazing support from our family and friends, my thought is to tell everyone when we are ready this maybe at 8 weeks or at 14 weeks, but when B and I are ready. My other thought is to tell everyone right away because we want those people praying for us each and everyday for a healthy baby. I know it's a ways off, but something that has been on my mind and I thought I would post the question to you out there. Would you tell everyone you were pregnant right away, wait till the all important 12 week mark, or wait until you are well into the 2nd trimester?? Leave your thoughts on the comments page!! Thanks so much!

Have a wonderful week, sorry for the ramblings!!!