Since Drew's birth I've been a lovely ball of hormones. Isn't every new mom? However, I thought everything was pretty much normal per say, until a few weeks ago when I started not being able to sleep. First, Drew is not the best sleeper at night. He naps like a champ, but night time we get about 4 hour stints and that's on a good night. Anyway, B is amazing and gets up with Drew for his first feeding so I can sleep until around 2 or 3, then it's my turn. However, Drew will go back to sleep and I can't literally I will be up for hours on end. Last night I was up from 2:30am-5am. Drew was content and happy sleeping away, and me, tossing and turning in bed.
Here's the kicker. I can't sleep because I'm worrying that he's going to wake up. Currently he's napping and I'm worried he's going to wake up. This is not normal. Before Drew was born I was pretty laid back, go with the flow kind of person. Now I don't recognize this worry wart as I call myself. The thing is, he's a great napper, will probably nap for at least an hour or two. I have no idea where this anxiety is coming from, but I think it's about time I go and speak with my physician about it. If not anything else, to make sure, this is aka normal and I'm not going insane in the membrane!
This anxiety has seemed to really start to rear it's ugly head these past couple of weeks and I have no idea why. Drew is now on a pretty good schedule, I enjoy staying home with him, and all in all life if pretty good at this point. What the heck do I have to stressed or anxious about...Like I said, I don't recognize this person that can't sleep at night. I used to be that person that could fall asleep at the drop of a hat. Now, not so much. What's my deal?
I am putting this out there because I would love to hear from other mom's about their experience with anxiety. I did a little research of my own and I have no exhibited any symptoms of postpartum depression, but there is something called postpartum anxiety disorder that I may very well fit the bill for. I'm not a medical expert by any means but after researching a bit, it seems this is what could be causing my anxiety.
We shall see.